When I Said Never

i could never love you
let's not waste our time with why
i am not above you
just very very far

I don't want to talk about it
maybe it'll just go away
you are your own disaster
undertow, tidal waves

Liar

I am a candy apple chock full of razor blades
You are a papercut and I am lemonade
I am a fucking machine you just have to turn me on
you are a gambler and I'm just one big con
get gone
get real gone
get real real gone
go now

suddenly made of cement scent of bleach mouth shut tight
made out of phrases you cobbled together from detective novels and lyrics
clear as a bell now you know and it's hell you were never not alone

Let's Pretend

I may be alone but maybe someday I won't
and if I hold my breath, time slows down just a bit
some days the words cling to my tongue, no they won't come
walking past the old folks home again but it's okay
summer waits with open arms for me

let's pretend there's no such thing as air conditioning
let the sweat run from our hair, til on our lips it's mingling

my life lights up at night, sirens warn me: walk on by
went out to shake it off, but I got swallowed up dissolved
I don't understand the happiness I see
the homeless man with the long white beard talking to himself
summer, young man, packed its bags and left

let's pretend that words can really convey a meaning
and all this waste of space and energy and it's nothing i'm feeling
i just want to

Turn The Knife

we were the sentries at arms for the life and the way
stationed together at twilight every other day
I was never gonna be the one to tell you
I was never gonna be the one to tell you

There in my hand was the shortest of the straws
a dark sudden cloak on the loser of the draw
i was never gonna be the one to kill you

dear friend I hope these words can reach you where you are, oh
dear friend I hope you see I've fallen very far, and I'm sorry you're gone
when I turned the knife
I ripped out your life
well I felt so alive
I felt so alive
dear friend those bells are ringing, ringing just for you
dear friend I'd do it all again if I had the chance to

It's Not Like We Thought

These eyes are made of sky
and you will look into them when you die
and I'll be smiling
we'll all be smiling
who will know you
who'll remember
I will know you
I'll remember
your veins your bones your inner roads
your eyes won't see a light
your cells won't multiply

I will take you into the night
do not struggle do not fight
your children cry
tears of sky

Don't Don't Don't Scream

waiting for a garden to grow
all the sky knows
teardrops won't disclose
who is the victim here
things aren't what they appear to be

summer's guns are firing are you home
blood running out your nose to
spread upon your blue jean dreams
soaking, slick and wet
fish writhing in a net don't
scream

Be Still

A rectangle of light, floating through the urban night
pierced by pairs of headlights
blue and conspicuous I fall to dust
I am thinking, I am thinking about the morning
about the morning
and all the mornings, all the mornings
to come

Got Burnt Once But

through the winter I was waiting
through the summer anticipating
i was pent-up, second-grading
i was chopped up sliced and flayed
into a meal for you
and a descending shoe
and you're so goddamn cute
I don't know what to do

through the years there may be others
other breath and sleeping quarters
but like you said, we'll be warriors
and we both know we were lovers
in the lightning-thick rooms
of our prior lives
and I know I have proof
way behind the sky

and i wait and i wait and i wait i ain't waiting no more
someday don't mean a thing unless someday is now
(break your heart)

I Meant Never

fire in your blood
water in my heart
I am not in love
I am the place where all lies start

do not call my number
do not get in your car
i am not above you
I am just very very far